| I worked as a paid propagandist for the cult for a time, writing for their newspaper. I wrote from the heart because I was sincerely devoted to Nichiren Buddhism. I made the mistake, however, of conflating the teachings of Nichiren with a corporation that claimed to represent the teachings. Huge mistake. I was a cult shill.
When I left after 14 years of membership, I was chased down by the cult's lawyers. They wanted me to recant my public criticism of the cult. They wanted me to sign an apology acknowledging that I had injured the cult and Nichiren Buddhism. My lawyer blasted them with refusals. She advised me for my safety: "Stay away from those people."
I stayed away.
It's worth noting that Nichiren Buddhism is a legitimate religion. Some adherents are fundamentalists, separatists, or general kooks, as with all religions. There are a half-dozen major sects and lots of offshoot groups who claim to practice in accord with Nichiren. Some are culty, some aren't. I don't reject Nichiren Buddhism; I reject Nichiren cults.
Yes, cults plural. The major cult may be a multibillion-dollar, multinational behemoth, but groups of two, three, or a dozen participants can be just as culty.
Question 1: Do I really need a sangha?
The cult was a dysfunctional sangha -- probably unworthy of being called a sangha -- but it was the only sangha I knew.
I continued to practice for several years, reciting gongyo and chanting daimoku on my own, or with a few friends who were similarly unaffiliated. I didn't consider myself an Independent; I didn't want to join any religious group ever again, not even a group as undefined as the Independents.
I checked online message boards and blogs frequently for Nichiren-related info. I never felt that a cybersangha could be a true sangha, though. Online sanghas are as ephemeral as online dating -- if people never meet face-to-face, it's all theoretical, impersonal, and ultimately alienating.
I convinced myself I didn't need a sangha. I decided I was a tusker:
Better it is to walk alone:
There is no fellowship with fools.
Walk alone, harm none, and know no conflict;
Be like a tusker in the woods alone.
During my tuskerhood, I would walk on a path at a park near my house at the same time every day. My knees were in bad shape. I wanted to be able to run again. I walked around and around the path for months and years trying to jog or run sometimes.
On the path I'd see "the regulars" -- the old guy on his bike, the tall-skinny guy with the long stride, people who were always at the park when I was there. I imagined that they were my sangha, literally my fellows on the path. I would send little prayers to them, little sparkles of goodwill.
I never wanted to stop and have a conversation with any of them, or exchange pleasantries beyond a basic hello. They were my stealth sangha, strangers for me to care about without getting too involved.
One day, I was able to run the entire 2.5-mile circuit without having to stop. As I passed one of the regulars, she said: "I'm proud of you."
That surprised me. I thought I was somehow invisible, fundamentally separate from the people on the path. They had noticed me, though, just as I had noticed them -- and maybe they cared about me, just as I cared about them.
It hadn't occurred to me that my presence on the path might make a difference to anyone except me. Doh! I forgot my interbeingness.
That experience got me thinking: I want to be part of a group of people who interact based on the idea that we're all committed to a path -- a path of practice, a path of aspiring to be better people, a path of trying to make the world a better place, whatever.
I want to be among people who aren't necessarily my friends or my family but who nonetheless share a sense of mutual responsibility.
I want a sangha.
Question 2: Which sangha is right for me?
Nichiren groups in my town are few and unappealing. Aside from the cult, there's an Ekayana dharma center which unfortunately reminds me of the cult (I mean, check this out.) The narrow, peculiar doctrines of Shoshu turn me off. I like Shu (not to be confused with Shoshu) but there's no temple near me, and I don't like Shu enough to pour my heart into building a Shu community.
Frankly, all the Japanese imports leave me cold. When I first started practicing, I lived in Los Angeles, which has a large Japanese population. The Japaneseness of Nichiren Buddhism seemed supercool to me then; it was exotic yet accessible. My favorite teachers were ethnically Japanese. I believed that Japanese people automatically understood things about Nichiren Buddhism that gaijin like me would take lifetimes to learn.
I realize now that much of what I assumed to be mystical insight was really the hypnotic language patterns and "loaded language" typical of a cult.
That said, the best teacher I've ever met in Nichiren Buddhism is ethnically Japanese. He talks in a unique way, with simplicity, humor, and strictness. I'm still working with guidance he gave me 15 years ago. It cut straight to all my issues. Amazing. Profound. Really simple and gentle. In my experience, this particular teacher is the exception to all rules, nationalities, and religious organizations.
So I'm not dissing Japanese people and the entire nation of Japan, I hope, when I say I have no interest in joining a Japanese organization. I have serious doubts whether any Japanese religious organization can become mainstream in the U.S. All major Nichiren sects still cling to Japanese terminology and mannerisms and miniscule differences among sects, and they pride themselves on foundational grudges dating back to the death of Nichiren. Why can't we leave that behind?
And let's face it. Nichiren Buddhists are terrible company. We're all the same -- we're still healing from our time in the cults, or we're proselytizing about the great new Nichiren group we've joined or started (or about the UU church we want to join), or we've dismissed groups entirely, saying things like, "We are all Buddhas; there is nothing to practice, nothing to attain." We're a bunch of bullshit artists, wounded bodhisattvas, self-referential narcissists, codependent suckers for charisma, and fierce rationalists who insist that daimoku is somehow very scientific.
We can be loads of fun, too, yeah, but the Nichiren community is like a closed loop that goes around and around getting smaller and smaller.
The problem, as I see it, is that Nichiren Buddhism is so straightforward and simple that we can't resist the urge to complicate it. We can't just say, "You're chanting? Good. That's all there is to it," and go along our merry ways. No, we have to add a bunch of caveats and scare quotes, generating endless, pointless discord.
We're never going to agree on namu vs. nam, Gohonzon vs. Daigohonzon, Shonin vs. Daishonin, Fuju-fuse vs. interfaith, etc. Never. Ever.
So what are we going to do about that?
Question 3: Must the sangha I choose be an overtly Nichiren sangha?
Here's my thinking: If the essence of the Lotus Sutra is true and efficacious, then it's universally true and efficacious, and has always been thus and will always be thus for all people in all circumstances.
Otherwise, it wouldn't be the universal dharma -- in which case, why bother embracing it at all?
If the essence of the Lotus Sutra is universal, then its essence is not confined to the literal, 28-chapter book known as the Lotus Sutra, nor to its elegantly succinct title, Myoho Renge Kyo.
Rather, the essence of the Lotus Sutra is accessible to and perceivable by all beings, including people in cultures and eras totally ignorant of the Buddhist tradition. Presumably, these people could/can perceive or intuit truths consonant with or identical to the essence of the Lotus Sutra. Presumably, these people expressed their insights in a wide variety of ways.
In other words, Myoho Renge Kyo may be the one true path, but it's referred to by many names in many ways across cultures and eras. That's what I believe, anyway. I believe it's possible to uphold the Lotus Sutra without being a member of an ostensibly Nichiren sangha.
I admire Chogyam Trungpa's books, particularly Shambhala: The Sacred Path of the Warrior, which I think is the best introductory book about Buddhism for Americans. He made Tibetan Buddhism immediately accessible. He created a whole system of training for Westerners who know nothing about dharma. Trungpa has been accused of being a charlatan and a cult leader, but Sacred Path of the Warrior speaks for itself. It's genius.
In my sangha search, I checked out Shambhala. They were wonderful, although, yes, I got a culty vibe at times. (Admittedly, my internal cultmeter is ultrasensitive now.) But that's not why I dismissed Shambhala as a potential sangha for me. I'm a chanter -- I do gongyo and daimoku -- that's my practice. Sitting meditation is fine, but Nichiren practice is Nichiren practice. Either you do it or you don't. I rejected the nice Zen people for the same reason; my practice didn't gel with their practice.
I figured that I'd be better off finding a non-Buddhist association of some kind. That way, I could continue my basic practice without having to adopt conflicting practices, and without feeling that I was championing contradictory interpretations of Buddhism.
I checked out a church of sarcastic Lutherans. They were great, but I knew I wouldn't be able to hang with so much Jesus all the time.
I checked out social-action organizations, too. Groups with political goals aren't the same as faith-centered groups, obviously, and that makes a huge difference to me. I want a sangha that's committed to religious expression and exploration.
All of this -- and a few encouraging comments from facebook friends -- prompted me to check out the Unitarian Universalists.
I liked them. I went to a study group about the book A Chosen Faith: An Introduction to Unitarian Universalism. I feared cult-style love bombing in the class, but it didn't happen. People were low key about my interest in UU. Everyone I talked to offered a different answer about what UU means to them -- a far cry from the rehearsed, recruitment-focused rhetoric of a cult.
Question 4 and beyond: What's so great about UU?
I think I've found the right sangha for me, and I think it's UU. Many questions remain. For instance, can I honestly respect the Bible and other holy books as sources of wisdom? By joining a UU church, am I somehow slighting the Lotus Sutra? If I join a UU church, am I still a Nichiren Buddhist? What are the basic responsibilities and requirements of a Nichiren Buddhist anyway?
I'll try to answer these questions in a future post.
For now, what do you think so far? Got any advice? More questions? Thanks for reading. |