| Further, if chanting didn't "work," would you still chant?
November 4 will be my 18th anniversary of receiving the Gohonzon -- my "Gohonzon birthday," as some chanters call it. For 18 years, I have practiced Nichiren Buddhism, and while I feel that I have benefited profoundly from the practice, I find myself somewhat hard pressed to explain exactly how I have benefited.
I spent more than ten years of my practice as a member of an organization (called the "Bowling Club" on this site) that was adept at conflating chanting with the receipt of goodies.
Eighteen years ago, shortly before becoming a Nichiren Buddhist, I was standing in the kitchen of my apartment in Long Beach, California. I was troubled that I had not heard back from a potential employer about a job I had interviewed for the previous week. I called my friend Lynne who had been trying to get me to attend a Bowling Club meeting. I asked, "What are the words of your magic chant?" She told me. I wrote them on a napkin and repeated them aloud. The very next moment -- literally, I swear -- the employer called to offer me the job.
Now. Was this correlation, or causality? All I know is that I said the magic words and instantly received what I had been wanting.
Thus began a decade of my learning to interpret the events of my life through the lens of dubious "cause and effect." The Bowling Club was really good at teaching members to view all happy events and circumstances as benefits of participating in Bowling Club activities, and all unhappy events and circumstances as challenges to be overcome by increased involvement with or commitment to the Bowling Club and its president.
This is one of the most insidiously crappy things about the Bowling Club: it distorts and cheapens the entire concept of benefit. Plus, it's a good example of how the Club appropriates the mantra. Chanting, like flossing, is essentially beneficial. The Bowling Club is like....like the American Dental Association claiming credit for the fact that millions of people brush and floss daily. Weak analogy...but maybe you know what I mean.
For the past eight years of my practice, I've become increasingly critical in my interpretation of benefit. I look a lot harder, now, at correlation and causality. And I believe that karma and causality in the Buddhist sense are unfathomable.
I have nothing to do with the Club these days, and I have had several years to practice in a way that I would call "independent." I continue to chant -- and I feel that I receive benefit, but it's hard for me to explain exactly what I mean by "benefit." Yes, I feel that chanting "works," but if you were to ask me for an example of how it works, my story would make little sense.
This blog entry doesn't really have a point. I'm just talking about what I'm thinking lately. |